Battlefields dot my maps,
I have forgotten the grammar to locate
my home, only fields frozen
in thick blood
endlessly stretch in front of me;
my skin has become a canvas of wounds
each scar drawn, painted, carefully, over time,
by a fascist King. Red. Crimson.
Black-dried rose petals. Except blue.
Horses gallop brewing dust from the fields,
clouds of dust rise up towards the topaz sky,
long lost sunlight rots on my skin – in Kyiv
lovers hold between their lips the last promise
of dawn.
Dawn, like meaning, slips away – constantly.
I cling to the words you once doodled on my skin,
your scalpel had dug too deep in some places,
refreshingly, had reopened apertures of pain:
stored, accumulated from before birth,
spilling over, aching across countless after-lives.
Memories of passionate moon-leaked nights
are weaved under my skin – covered in blood;
nights we have spent kissing each other,
hungrily,
before detonating the enemy mines,
before firing at one another, mercilessly.
We have always made love in turbulent times,
lying across the no-man’s land,
a multitude of borders zigzagging over us,
our skin flayed, dried, stitched to design atlases,
a thousand ships sailing over our blood
to lay siege on Ilium,
– Achilles, we are destined to die.