Before I lose the key to your world
Before we become absolute strangers
Before the layers of darkness
Engulf you in a bubble
Let me note this down,
Remains of me in your memories
About the once existed us.
Glimpses of our journey
Flashes before me
Somewhere you stumbled
While running together
My stretched hands couldn’t
Hold up the drowning you
I watch you being drenched in it
With an innate helplessness
Life is thieving you away
I wish to be detached of
Everything, but the memories
Keep hurting and I wake up
Fearing the day I get
Erased out of you
You being confused
And lost petrifies me
I break down at the chaotic
Chaos surrounding us but
Stands up again
Only to shield you
Feeling dichotomous guilt
Of having loved and not
loved enough, made
Letting go not that easy
For the cleaned, ironed clothes
Still smells you, of the scented
Ink, sweat and sandalwood
Perfect evenings with baked
Banana cakes and jaggery coffee
Tastes you, but I miss the secret
Ingredients of your recipe
Ringtones, calling bells and
The radio sounds you
Worn out pages of my diary
Now wet with tears, remind you.
I crave to delve deep in the wild
To pen a poem for you,
Inked in silences, one
That soothes you
A word that we can meet
Again as strangers somewhere
With no residue of love and
Expectations out of it.
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