Benzo Brain #12

[Heaven is at hand.]

I am weightless, drifting

on the softest, fluffiest

cloud. I look for angels in

Heaven. Fr. Lance reaches

out his hand piercing the

illusion of time, brushing

aside the dust of death. I

remember washing his feet

on Maundy Thursday. I kissed

his hand on Easter morning.

Nothing hurts. I love you.

Lead me to the rock, Lancie.

I awake sobbing. Have to pee.

My right knee gives out.

My mouth is full of gravel.

Benzo Brain #13

[Radical acceptance.]

I’m still here. I’m doing pretty good.

Don’t fall often. Stars to a minimum.

The doormat stays put. Remembering

who I had been. Del Rey beach and

hummingbirds. Was it Dale who loved

me last or at all? A broken woman.

Wearing out a sofa. Day dreams. I

chat with Betty, I think. She has pink

earrings. And I have a new boyfriend:

Sun Tzu.

“If you wait by the river long enough,

the bodies of your enemies will float by.”

……… all wearing white lab coats.